Here's a short video for proof. Stay tuned til after the kiss when she looks deep into your eyes. It just gets me every time.
It might be better to watch it without sound, 'cause then you won't have to hear my annoying voice. Plus, no sound reminds me of those old-timey videos.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Hola y Fotos
So I've been busy, but I say that all the time. Truly, it's just a pain in the rear to connect two different cameras to my parents computer to upload photos, so sometimes it's easier for me to tackle it once a month. But here's my little beauty and I. Hope you enjoy.
My second mother's day. I almost let the day go without any photos of me and the girl, but right before bed I realized I needed to capture the very reason why I get to celebrate the day.
She's not feeling it.
Let's discuss my hair in the picture below. Did this happen to anyone else after you had a baby? I suddenly got a growth of baby hairs all along my hairline. At first I thought the hairs were short, 'cause they kept getting caught in my old pair of glasses and breaking, but then I realized it was all across my forehead, which didn't make sense. Then I heard this is typical after you give birth. What the heck? It did not bode well for my appearance, but instead made me feel unkempt, even after many failed attempts at trying to appear polished.
She loves Oreo's.
Little hitler
Lucero trashing my stack of papers to shred.
Playing in her new pool.
Lucero Wants You!
With cousin Jamie
Seriously, who keeps giving her oreos.
This face...not fun to clean up.
She's my daughter alright: she knows exactly what to do when someone busts out the camera.
Cousin Destin comes to visit. He has a thing for her car. Kinda reminds me of his dad who used to enjoy playing with my pink Barbie car.
She really enjoys her new ride.
Mom gets clean laundry out of the dryer. Baby throws it all over the floor. Typical.
Grandpa's little helper.
Guess who finally got a crib?
Her in it.
Her view of me from it. (Nice double chin, mommy.)
Her asleep in it. FINALLY!
The famous shirt we had made. Yep, the sign in the background was the inspiration. It's not an exact replica, but it works. We sold 250 shirts all before the rodeo even began. This might explain why I've been so busy.
Us at the rodeo parade. (I got bangs to help hide those little hairs.)
Lucero at the rodeo.
On our way to the rodeo.
And finally me and the girl. Daddy doesn't get to be in the picture, mostly because I try to keep him hidden, but also because he doesn't seem to like posing for pictures. I don't know how many pictures we have of him not looking at the camera. Sometimes that's fine, but not always.
My second mother's day. I almost let the day go without any photos of me and the girl, but right before bed I realized I needed to capture the very reason why I get to celebrate the day.
She's not feeling it.
Let's discuss my hair in the picture below. Did this happen to anyone else after you had a baby? I suddenly got a growth of baby hairs all along my hairline. At first I thought the hairs were short, 'cause they kept getting caught in my old pair of glasses and breaking, but then I realized it was all across my forehead, which didn't make sense. Then I heard this is typical after you give birth. What the heck? It did not bode well for my appearance, but instead made me feel unkempt, even after many failed attempts at trying to appear polished.
She loves Oreo's.
Little hitler
Lucero trashing my stack of papers to shred.
Playing in her new pool.
Lucero Wants You!
With cousin Jamie
Seriously, who keeps giving her oreos.
This face...not fun to clean up.
She's my daughter alright: she knows exactly what to do when someone busts out the camera.
Cousin Destin comes to visit. He has a thing for her car. Kinda reminds me of his dad who used to enjoy playing with my pink Barbie car.
She really enjoys her new ride.
Mom gets clean laundry out of the dryer. Baby throws it all over the floor. Typical.
Grandpa's little helper.
Guess who finally got a crib?
Her in it.
Her view of me from it. (Nice double chin, mommy.)
Her asleep in it. FINALLY!
The famous shirt we had made. Yep, the sign in the background was the inspiration. It's not an exact replica, but it works. We sold 250 shirts all before the rodeo even began. This might explain why I've been so busy.
Us at the rodeo parade. (I got bangs to help hide those little hairs.)
Lucero at the rodeo.
On our way to the rodeo.
And finally me and the girl. Daddy doesn't get to be in the picture, mostly because I try to keep him hidden, but also because he doesn't seem to like posing for pictures. I don't know how many pictures we have of him not looking at the camera. Sometimes that's fine, but not always.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Missing Her
It's been three months since the accident, meaning three months since I last spoke with Golightly. The other night I had a dream about her. In the dream, I called her phone (why? I have no idea since I know she's not available) and she answered. She wanted to know what was going on in my life and when I tried to ask her what was going on with the accident and everything, which oddly in the dream she was completely aware of it, she just said something like, oh, don't even go there, I don't want to talk about it. That's all I can recall from the dream, but I find it so funny how the brain, my brain to be exact, can recall such minuscule details, like a person's voice, especially one I haven't heard in a while, down to the inflection in the way the person speaks, tone and everything. Talking to Golightly in my dream was exactly how I remember it in real life. Everything. It made me sad waking up from it, only to realize it was just a dream and I couldn't actually pick up the phone and call her.
I miss my friend so very much. There's so many little things I want to talk to her about. It's nothing important, nothing serious, but just those little things I want to talk over with my friend, just to get her reaction, just to see what she'll say. I really want her to snap out of the coma, but the thing is I'm not too sure she'll be our same Golightly. I guess that's the part where I (we) have to have faith in God. Are there still miracles in our modern world? Is it really possible for her to wake unscathed from the whole incident? It's really hard to sit here and not question God and how He can fix this, but I find myself doing it a lot. I just continue to wonder if I will get my good friend back.
As for her status, the latest is "Golightly is making improvements everyday. She continues to track people around the room and she seems to love having her eyes open most of the day now. It is still up in the air as to where Golightly will eventually be placed or what facility will accept her. With everyones continued support though Golightly has made great strides recently in her improvements. We'd like to keep stimulating Golightly to keep her brain reactive and functioning, as it will help with her healing."
Let's stay hopeful.
As for her status, the latest is "Golightly is making improvements everyday. She continues to track people around the room and she seems to love having her eyes open most of the day now. It is still up in the air as to where Golightly will eventually be placed or what facility will accept her. With everyones continued support though Golightly has made great strides recently in her improvements. We'd like to keep stimulating Golightly to keep her brain reactive and functioning, as it will help with her healing."
Let's stay hopeful.
Sunday, June 07, 2009
What to Say
I apologize for my absence, but I've been a bit preoccupied. I will go into detail later. First and foremost let me just say I know many of you are concerned with Golightly's status. Unfortunately, the reports given by friends and family are few and far between. These are the last two I received and they're both pretty brief.
May 23: Golightly's mother and brother arrived in Dallas today to spend the memorial weekend with Golightly! She has her eyes open and is reacting well to stimulus. They have even shown us how well Golightly tolerates being upright in her cardiac chair. It's a fun day filled with the sing song of 'Annie' and the voices of love.
June 2: Golightly continues to improve and amaze everyone with her progress. She seems to be tracking everyone in her room a lot better now. The breathing tube has been fully removed and right now only has some gauze covering the healing.
So as you can see, the progress is slow and I'm sure will continue that way until she wakes up. Keep praying for her. Someone asked if Cowboy is still by her side. From what I've gathered from a friend of Golightly's, he is still by her side, but he's still pretty down about the whole thing. The friend speculates he's got a guilty conscience, since he convinced Golightly to go out the night of the accident. That's really all I've heard in terms of Cowboy.
As for me, well, heck I didn't realize that May 20 was my last post. That's not very good. But I've had a couple of things going on, so I hope yall will forgive me.
Number one, I've been looking for a job. I haven't been full-force about the job search, but slowly and surely I'm getting my resume out there and trying to make contacts with various people and places. Like I said before, it's pretty tough to do this with a toddler at your heels. It's proving very difficult to focus on cover letters and such with her begging for my attention (read: crying incessantly). She's created disasters in the room, but I'll allow it, as long as it buys me thirty minutes to write out a decent paragraph or two. The good news is I've been offered a part time job, which I will start tomorrow. Although, it's only part time, which means no benefits (boo), I'm still pretty excited about it, 'cause at least I'll be getting myself out there in the workforce. Plus, in a way, I'll be easing Lucero away from me. Her father will be watching her while I work. I'm pretty sure he can manage her for four hours a day. However, I'll be sitting at my new job wondering if she's wearing a bib when he decides to feed her something not on my approved list of meals or if he'll be able to maintain her nap schedule. True, it's only four hours, but she should get at least one nap in in that amount of time. Plus, it will give X a small, teeny, tiny taste of my day. Seriously, four hours is not a lot of time, but geez, it would be nice for him to know what I go through, though I'm sure he won't.
Secondly, I've been trying to wean Lucero. Once she got over her little cold and cough, it became relatively easy. I eliminated the day feeding(s) and night feedings, meaning the middle of the night when she would constantly wake, and it wasn't too difficult. For day, I just distracted her with food and other snacks when I would normally feed her. The middle of the night feedings were, what I suspected, just for comfort on her part, obviously not mine. One night I just decided to stop nursing her throughout the night when she woke, but instead to rock her like I normally do and offer her the pacifier. The first couple of times, she would cry and shake her head at it, but I kept insisting she take it or get nothing. After a few minutes, she eventually would take the pacifier and would fall soundly back to sleep. Now we're pretty much at the point where she sleeps through out the night, no more waking to be rocked or comforted and definitely no more feedings! Yes, thank you, God! So basically we are down to two feedings a day, the morning and before bedtime one. Once I start my part time gig, I'm going to eliminate the morning one and allow her father to feed her breakfast. Normally, I would nurse her in the morning and then an hour later I would make her some baby oatmeal. We'll see how it all works out with her waking and going straight to a prepared breakfast meal. The one thing we are struggling with is to get her to drink more milk. She takes little sips, but no more than a couple of ounces. When I say "couple of ounces" I literally mean only two ounces. We use a sippy cup, so I'm wondering if there's another method to get her to drink more. Thoughts? Suggestions?
Third, together with my friend Blythe, we're working on a project to sale some T-shirts for the upcoming rodeo here in town. We already have the awesome design, thank you, Kazim, but we are currently debating colors of the shirts, as well as colors of the screen print. We are considering going strictly with red, black and white shirts, but a part of me feels maybe we should offer more of a variety in colors, 'cause I feel black and white shirts are pretty basic and everyone already has those color Ts in their dresser drawer. However, the issue we have is there's not a huge sampling of cool color shirts to choose from. So I ask yall, if you could choose three colors for a T-shirt you would buy and wear, which would those be? Answer soon, because decisions are being made quickly. (By the way, the link shows a pic of the design, but it will be the reverse of what you see, meaning the words and graphics will be the screen print color and the other part will be gone, so it'll just be the T-shirt. Does this make sense? We made that shirt with an iron-on, but since we're mass producing the Ts, then it wouldn't be required to have the design contained. Get it?)
And that's all folks. Once again, I apologize for the lean posting, but I'm sure yall understand.
May 23: Golightly's mother and brother arrived in Dallas today to spend the memorial weekend with Golightly! She has her eyes open and is reacting well to stimulus. They have even shown us how well Golightly tolerates being upright in her cardiac chair. It's a fun day filled with the sing song of 'Annie' and the voices of love.
June 2: Golightly continues to improve and amaze everyone with her progress. She seems to be tracking everyone in her room a lot better now. The breathing tube has been fully removed and right now only has some gauze covering the healing.
So as you can see, the progress is slow and I'm sure will continue that way until she wakes up. Keep praying for her. Someone asked if Cowboy is still by her side. From what I've gathered from a friend of Golightly's, he is still by her side, but he's still pretty down about the whole thing. The friend speculates he's got a guilty conscience, since he convinced Golightly to go out the night of the accident. That's really all I've heard in terms of Cowboy.
As for me, well, heck I didn't realize that May 20 was my last post. That's not very good. But I've had a couple of things going on, so I hope yall will forgive me.
Number one, I've been looking for a job. I haven't been full-force about the job search, but slowly and surely I'm getting my resume out there and trying to make contacts with various people and places. Like I said before, it's pretty tough to do this with a toddler at your heels. It's proving very difficult to focus on cover letters and such with her begging for my attention (read: crying incessantly). She's created disasters in the room, but I'll allow it, as long as it buys me thirty minutes to write out a decent paragraph or two. The good news is I've been offered a part time job, which I will start tomorrow. Although, it's only part time, which means no benefits (boo), I'm still pretty excited about it, 'cause at least I'll be getting myself out there in the workforce. Plus, in a way, I'll be easing Lucero away from me. Her father will be watching her while I work. I'm pretty sure he can manage her for four hours a day. However, I'll be sitting at my new job wondering if she's wearing a bib when he decides to feed her something not on my approved list of meals or if he'll be able to maintain her nap schedule. True, it's only four hours, but she should get at least one nap in in that amount of time. Plus, it will give X a small, teeny, tiny taste of my day. Seriously, four hours is not a lot of time, but geez, it would be nice for him to know what I go through, though I'm sure he won't.
Secondly, I've been trying to wean Lucero. Once she got over her little cold and cough, it became relatively easy. I eliminated the day feeding(s) and night feedings, meaning the middle of the night when she would constantly wake, and it wasn't too difficult. For day, I just distracted her with food and other snacks when I would normally feed her. The middle of the night feedings were, what I suspected, just for comfort on her part, obviously not mine. One night I just decided to stop nursing her throughout the night when she woke, but instead to rock her like I normally do and offer her the pacifier. The first couple of times, she would cry and shake her head at it, but I kept insisting she take it or get nothing. After a few minutes, she eventually would take the pacifier and would fall soundly back to sleep. Now we're pretty much at the point where she sleeps through out the night, no more waking to be rocked or comforted and definitely no more feedings! Yes, thank you, God! So basically we are down to two feedings a day, the morning and before bedtime one. Once I start my part time gig, I'm going to eliminate the morning one and allow her father to feed her breakfast. Normally, I would nurse her in the morning and then an hour later I would make her some baby oatmeal. We'll see how it all works out with her waking and going straight to a prepared breakfast meal. The one thing we are struggling with is to get her to drink more milk. She takes little sips, but no more than a couple of ounces. When I say "couple of ounces" I literally mean only two ounces. We use a sippy cup, so I'm wondering if there's another method to get her to drink more. Thoughts? Suggestions?
Third, together with my friend Blythe, we're working on a project to sale some T-shirts for the upcoming rodeo here in town. We already have the awesome design, thank you, Kazim, but we are currently debating colors of the shirts, as well as colors of the screen print. We are considering going strictly with red, black and white shirts, but a part of me feels maybe we should offer more of a variety in colors, 'cause I feel black and white shirts are pretty basic and everyone already has those color Ts in their dresser drawer. However, the issue we have is there's not a huge sampling of cool color shirts to choose from. So I ask yall, if you could choose three colors for a T-shirt you would buy and wear, which would those be? Answer soon, because decisions are being made quickly. (By the way, the link shows a pic of the design, but it will be the reverse of what you see, meaning the words and graphics will be the screen print color and the other part will be gone, so it'll just be the T-shirt. Does this make sense? We made that shirt with an iron-on, but since we're mass producing the Ts, then it wouldn't be required to have the design contained. Get it?)
And that's all folks. Once again, I apologize for the lean posting, but I'm sure yall understand.
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